Fun and Just Because

When you feel sorry for yourself!

Happy Mother’s Day again everyone! Over all today was a very nice day. I got to see my Mom, Grandma, along with two of my sisters and Aunts and Uncle. My morning didn’t start the greatest because I decided to feel sorry for myself.

As a Mom, we do a lot. We cook, clean, make sure everyone else is where they need to go and make sure they have what they need. I’m not perfect by any means. Sometimes my house looks like tornado hit it, depending on what irons I have in the fire. I work from home now doing various consulting services, which is feast or famine. Currently it’s famine unfortunately, but I keep on keeping on. I don’t sleep well at night because my mind is constantly churning. I have a lot on my mind. We also decided mid year to take our youngest son out of public school and put him in a Charter School. This was for various reasons, but it’s been stressful. I’m constantly harassing him to do homework or sign in for class. Somedays I feel like another job was added to my resume that I didn’t anticipate. As a Mom, I’ll do what it takes to make sure he succeeds. My reward? He sent the sweetest text today telling me how much he appreciates what I do. (SCORE!!!)

Why did I feel sorry for myself? The devil decided to come visit and poke around inside my head. Taunting me to think negatively. To the point I snapped out and ended up going alone to visit my family. I had a headache by the time I arrived and to top it off, I needed gas and stopped at a local convenience store. I grabbed a soda can out of the car to throw it away and instead splashed it all over my top. 😡. Par for the course right!

I got in the car and started to cry. Do you ever feel like you just need to cry? This probably exasperated my headache. I tried playing some music and it helped a little. Instead I prayed. I asked the Lord to please help me clear my head and help me with my negativity. I enjoyed my visit with my family and had to rush out because I was summoned home for a cooked meal waiting for me. WHAT???

I decided to play some of my favorite Christian Rock songs on the way home. This included Casting Crowns, Ryan Stevenson, Chris Tomlin. Zach Willams. By the time I got home I was singing along like a crazy lady. Not caring who was watching. I even played some songs that made me tear up. I felt good!!!! It was what I needed.

I am truly blessed to have my life and family that I have. It’s completely stressful at times and I guess I’m allowed to have my moments at times. We all have them. Maybe today I just needed that “me” time. Even if it was a short time to and from my destination.

Happy Mother’s Day and I hope all of enjoyed the day in your own way.



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