Journey of Faith

I was fearfully and wonderfully made!

Jesus tells us that we were meant to stand out and not to fit in. Being 51, I can look back over several decades of my life and tell you that is absolutely true. When I was about 3 years old, a neighbor came to my parents to tell them they noticed that I had a limp. I was also falling more than normal when I walked. They immediately took me to one of the best Orthopedic Doctors in our area. I was diagnosed with Legg Calve Perthes Disease ( It’s rare to be found in girls. So, I’ve been “different” for as long as I can remember. I had to wear a leg brace on my right leg (the leg with the issue), and a tall, healed shoe (like the rock band Kiss) on my left foot. Somehow, I was able to jump around and do pretty much the same stuff other kids could do. Although, I didn’t learn to ride a bike until I was probably 8. I finally had the brace removed before I went into first grade. By 5th grade, I again couldn’t just fit in with everyone else. Noooo….I had to be taller. I had to develop sooner. By 6th grade, Aunt Flo came to visit sooner than some of the other girls. It just seemed like I could never catch a break. When you look back over the Bible and the cast of characters that Jesus ask to help him with his ministry, they weren’t the blend in type of people. We had a bunch of run of the mill fisherman, a tax collector, a reformed prostitute, and then there’s Paul who hated Christians before his walk down the road to Damascus. I thought about this post yesterday after listening to my playlist. I love listening to Christian music. My one favorite group is #Casting Crowns. They came out with a recent song called “Nobody”. Here’s the link to the official video ( I often wonder if people question who do I think I am to talk about the Lord? Then I remembered this song and its lyric are exactly what Jesus wants from us. “I’m just a nobody, trying to tell everybody, all about somebody that saved my soul.” God wants those of us that don’t fit in because he needs us to stand up and shine! We have stories to tell, we have testimonies to give. We have proof how he has worked in our lives and the lives of those around us. So go and stand out in the crowd!!

Fun and Just Because

When you feel sorry for yourself!

Happy Mother’s Day again everyone! Over all today was a very nice day. I got to see my Mom, Grandma, along with two of my sisters and Aunts and Uncle. My morning didn’t start the greatest because I decided to feel sorry for myself.

As a Mom, we do a lot. We cook, clean, make sure everyone else is where they need to go and make sure they have what they need. I’m not perfect by any means. Sometimes my house looks like tornado hit it, depending on what irons I have in the fire. I work from home now doing various consulting services, which is feast or famine. Currently it’s famine unfortunately, but I keep on keeping on. I don’t sleep well at night because my mind is constantly churning. I have a lot on my mind. We also decided mid year to take our youngest son out of public school and put him in a Charter School. This was for various reasons, but it’s been stressful. I’m constantly harassing him to do homework or sign in for class. Somedays I feel like another job was added to my resume that I didn’t anticipate. As a Mom, I’ll do what it takes to make sure he succeeds. My reward? He sent the sweetest text today telling me how much he appreciates what I do. (SCORE!!!)

Why did I feel sorry for myself? The devil decided to come visit and poke around inside my head. Taunting me to think negatively. To the point I snapped out and ended up going alone to visit my family. I had a headache by the time I arrived and to top it off, I needed gas and stopped at a local convenience store. I grabbed a soda can out of the car to throw it away and instead splashed it all over my top. 😡. Par for the course right!

I got in the car and started to cry. Do you ever feel like you just need to cry? This probably exasperated my headache. I tried playing some music and it helped a little. Instead I prayed. I asked the Lord to please help me clear my head and help me with my negativity. I enjoyed my visit with my family and had to rush out because I was summoned home for a cooked meal waiting for me. WHAT???

I decided to play some of my favorite Christian Rock songs on the way home. This included Casting Crowns, Ryan Stevenson, Chris Tomlin. Zach Willams. By the time I got home I was singing along like a crazy lady. Not caring who was watching. I even played some songs that made me tear up. I felt good!!!! It was what I needed.

I am truly blessed to have my life and family that I have. It’s completely stressful at times and I guess I’m allowed to have my moments at times. We all have them. Maybe today I just needed that “me” time. Even if it was a short time to and from my destination.

Happy Mother’s Day and I hope all of enjoyed the day in your own way.


Fun and Just Because

Will work for goats 🐐

If you’ve never owned or been around goats, I have to apologize at what you’re missing. These little creatures are like dogs with bundles of personality. You can’t spend time with them and have a bad mood.

When we decided to look into buying goats, it started with wanting 2. You have to have 2 because they are herd animals and they’ll be lonely. No a dog or other animal doesn’t exactly cut it. We decided on a Nigerian dwarf. Well then the boys got involved and we ended up with the Nigerian I wanted and 2 Boer goats. Dash, Buzz and Woody. Well poor Dash was odd man out because the Boers were brothers. So we did what any responsible, goat lover would do and called the breeder to get Dash’s brother Thumper. Shhh, we’re only supposed to have 2 goats. I said Heah, my goats have goats lol.

Unfortunately we lost Buzz. We aren’t sure what happened and neither was the vet. We did everything right. Sadly he passed away in my Son Sean’s arms on the way to the vet.

The 3 we have are happy and continues to bring us joy. What brings you joy?

Each day we should wake up with a thankful heart. Matthew 6:34 tells us, “don’t worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself”. Each day is a gift and we should appreciate the gift in the moment. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. I urge you to find 10 things each day you’re thankful for and see if you notice a difference in your attitude.

Give your cares to God. Let him hold you. There’s another song by Casting Crowns that has gotten me through a lot.

Please enjoy!

Father, thank you for today. Thank you for all that I have. The people who love me, people who support me, and those that don’t. I pray for kindness and forgiveness of those who speak unkind words and that they can find healing and joy. Thank you for loving me. Amen